Tuesday, June 26, 2007

Yup, he's pretty darn ugly!

The Chinese Crested dog 'Elwood' appears at the 2007 World's Ugliest Dog Contest Friday, June 22, 2007, in Petaluma, Calif. Elwood, who weighs in at just 6 lbs and was rescued as the result of a New Jersey SPCA investigation, has won the title of World's ugliest dog of 2007. (AP Photo/Ben Margot)

We have a new guest at our house.


We live on a farm in the country, so we have lots of critters. We have a new pet that likes to hang out on our front porch, a cute little frog, my girls have named Bob. Now, Bob doesn't look like Kermy, I just couldn't find a cuter frog picture than Kermit!

Sunday, June 24, 2007

Mmmm...Triple chocolate brownies!

I'm paying attention to the recipe, someone very dear to me is paying close attention to the baker! Tee hee. :-)

This is also a pancake recipe from Nigella. On occasion, I also like to cook breakfast in a satin robe and speak in an English accent.


Nigella Lawson

I'm goin' to Jackson!

Friday, June 22, 2007

Sigh...

I miss my kids so much I am watching Hanna Montana. It reminds me of them and I like the noise, it is comforting.

Thursday, June 21, 2007

In the past week I...

*Had an awesome time in Chicago!
*Graduated from the Families in Transition counseling I was taking for my divorce to be final!
*Missed my girls tremendously (they are with their dad this week).
*Slept alot, I have been very tired this week.
*Eaten more than I have slept, been very, very hungry this week.
*Gave a deposition.

I need a burrito and a nap.

Friday, June 15, 2007

Can we keep him? Huh Mom, PLEASE???

This morning was crazy, I was trying to get myself finished packed along with the girls for their week with their dad. My youngest had ran over to my Mom's house to grab a few things I needed. I heard her come back in the house and I came out of the bedroom to check on her. She was not alone. There was a black dog standing in my living room wagging his tail! I just stood there with my mouth open. I asked her where the dog came from, since we don't have a black dog. She said his name was Puppy and he followed her home. Hmmm....she ran next door and the dog followed her home? And why was the dog in my house?? "He is all alone" she quickly said as I walked toward the door to escort our new friend outside. And as I am sure you already guessed, the little booger didn't want to leave! After some prodding he did decide to wander back outside and my little girl finally realized she was NOT getting a new pet!

Thursday, June 14, 2007

Families in Transition

In the county where we live, when you divorce and have children between the ages of 6-16, each family member must complete six hours of Families in Transition Counseling. It is ordered by the Court and each parent must pay $50 to attend. Needless to say, I was a little skeptical at first. I went in with an open mind, this is for the best interest of my children. The session started with a movie showing children of divorce and their reactions and how they have coped since their parents divorces. It reminded me of how my children were told of our divorce and how I will never forget their reaction or forgive their father for his behavior that night. How my youngest thought he was kidding when he said "Mommy wants a divorce and Daddy doesn't" and she started laughing. Because everything was a joke to him, he was always "kidding". When she turned and looked at her sister and then looked back at me, I will never forget the look on her little face. The look of doubt, fear, her world as she knew it had just crumbled beneath her. A mother never wants to see that look on her child's face. My oldest knew something wasn't right, she had been asking me for weeks if we were getting a divorce, she was prepared for what was to come.

The counselor had some very interersting points to make, some of them being:

*Our children are made up of two parents and we can't ask them to deny a part of themselves. The greatest gift we can give them is the ability to love the other parent.

*The importance of not breaking promises. I don't mean things like, not ordering take out or not going swimming. I mean the things that matter, being there for them. They have to know that I am here for them. Just because their dad and I couldn't get along and didn't stay together doesn't mean that I am going to abandon them. I am a mother, these thoughts never enter my mind, but as a child, I could see them thinking, what if? I need to reassure them they are safe, they are secure and I am here for them and I love them.

*They are grieving too. They miss not seeing their dad everyday. What can I do to help them with the grieving process? Routines are very important for children, it helps keep them grounded.

*I found this to be very interesting - the counselor was talking about how through life we make different friends. You have friends in grade school, middle and high school. Then you go to college and make new friends. After you graduate, you start a job and make even more new friends. At this point in your life, you are certainly a different person, than lets say, you were in high school, and you don't have all the same friends, right? Well, it's the same with your mate. People change, people grow, and sometimes it is in opposite directions. And if you are not happy, then you need to be happy. Life is too long AND too short to be unhappy. You are not doing anyone any favors by living your life unhappy. You know what you need to do - :-) - be happy!

Tuesday, June 12, 2007

"Uh-oh! SpaghettiOs!"


I know what you are thinking, my gosh woman, you are 37 yrs old!! I know, I know, but I still love these little boogers.

I mean, come on - what is there not to like? Pasta, tomato sauce, meatballs! Yummers!!

Take a look at these kids, they love them too!

ONLY 3 MORE DAYS!!!!

Saturday, June 09, 2007

A perfect evening


to sit on the front porch with your honey. Two wicker chairs with fluffy pillows, railing for your feet and a side table for a cold drink. A warm breeze blows as the sun sets and the kids laughter echos across the freshly mowed field. It's the best view in the world.

Friday, June 08, 2007

It finally happened...

My little lion attacked this morning. I can't blame her though, she has spent the last two days with her cousin, I wouldn't exactly call them "kissing cousins". She has had about all she can handle this week, she needs time to decompress. This weekend will do her some good. She likes to play the Wii w/ Dunnski and they are going to play some baseball in the backyard. She loves to play baseball, but she likes to play in her in high heel sandals with her purse and freshly applied lip gloss, not a good combo. :-)

Thursday, June 07, 2007

Mmmm...Rootbeer floats!


Tonight at Sonic, it was free root beer float night!! YUMMY!!

He will take us back...

I just heard this on the radio, it made me smile, I love Jeremy Camps voice. He is right, He takes us back always, even when our fight is over now, he takes us back always.

The One

B is for bananas - B-A-N-A-N-A-S!

I have decided my 7 year old is working with my 12 year old to drive me to a nervous breakdown. This is now the 4th day in a row that my youngest has been completely normal. I am not sure how to handle her not being spastic, not freaking out, or not acting completely insane. I am holding my breathe, waiting, like a gazelle, waiting for the hungry lion to attack.

On the other hand, my 12 year old has stepped up to the plate and has shown me an attitude that I am afraid is just the beginning of her preteen years. Selfish doesn't even begin to describe her right now. I have her talking to the same therapist that my youngest is, and this infuriates her. She doesn't think she needs to talk to anyone. This makes me want to have her talk to the therapist more, this worries me that she is so against talking to anyone. I think after I post this I will Google "military schools for girls".

Wednesday, June 06, 2007

Kentucky Living, October 1996

An old worn and stained Kentucky Living magazine folded to page 35. Ahhh, yes, I can remember the day it came in the mail, I know, I really need a life. I sat down and started to thumb through it, looking for any fall festivals in the area, and instead, found an apple pie recipe. And not just any apple pie recipe, this is THE apple pie recipe. It's funny, but I just realized tonight looking at this magazine, that my ex and I always made this pie together, dozens of times for holidays, parties and church gatherings. I can't remember a single time we made the pies, we always made two, alone. I am not really sure why we did this, but I have to say, it is a happy memory. Just two people cutting up apples and baking. We were still two unhappy, lonely people who had two children together, but something was different. As I write this now, crying I still can't tell you what it is, but I sure wish I knew.

Apple Pie

1 double pie crust prepared
3 cups Granny Smith apples, peeled and sliced thin
1-1/2 cups plus 2 tablespoons sugar
1/4 cup butter
3 tablespoons flour
2 teaspoons cinnamon

Mix 1-1/2 cups sugar, flour and cinnamon together. Mix with apples. Put pie crust into pie dish and fill with apple mixture. (It will be full and rounded.) Add butter to top and put on top of crust. Seal around edges and sprinkle with 2 tablespoons of sugar. Dot with butter and cut slits in top of crust. Bake at 375 for 45 minutes. Serves 6.
Great served hot or cold with whip cream or ice cream

Potatoes don't grow on trees!


I stopped by the grocery on the way home tonight to pick up a few things for dinner. I was checking out and the bagger boy was putting a bag of potatoes in my cart. And he casually mentioned that he thought potatoes grew on trees, that a friend of his had told him earlier in the day that they grow in the ground. He thought that was the craziest thing he had ever heard and that she was so silly for thinking that. And then he looked at me to confirm or deny how spuds are indeed born. I had to break it to him that they are actually grown in the dirt.

I don't know how to act..

This is the third morning in a row my youngest has woke up in a good mood. I don't just mean in a good mood, she has not been disagreeable! I am not sure what has happened to her. She came home from her dad's house Sunday a little tired, which is normal, but with no other noticeable changes. I think I need to check her for crop circles or something, she had to have been abducted by aliens while she was with her dad. He is such a heavy sleeper, he would have never have heard them! This is the only possible explanation!!

Monday, June 04, 2007

To Good Friends...

I emailed an old friend today I hadn't heard from in a few weeks. We met when we both were pregnant with our youngest children, mine a girl, hers a boy. We joke that they will one day grow up, fall in love and marry. Granted, they are now almost eight years old, but no sparks are flying yet.

We are both very busy, working full time, raising families, sadly it's very easy to disconnect. Her oldest is graduating from high school this week, and will be leaving for college in the fall. Needless to say, my friend isn't doing well. She has been crying alot and she had an emotional meltdown yesterday at church during the graduation ceremony. Now, I know how she feels, I have been carrying Kleenex in my purse for the last six months.

When I was first dealing with my separation and starting my divorce, I didn't lean on her much. I don't like to burden other people with my problems, that just isn't who I am. She told me recently she felt hurt that I didn't "need" her. I didn't know I was hurting her by being distant. It wasn't that I didn't need her, it was that I didn't know what I needed.

So, I am not sure if my friend knows what she needs right now, but I offered my ear and my shoulder today for as long as she needs it. Oh yeah, and my Kleenex!!

Love this song, heard it today and couldn't get it out of my head.

Friday, June 01, 2007

Mmmichael

Has the wrong purse ever put you in a bad mood?

It has me! I have been carrying this adorable little lime green bucket purse that I purchased at a boutique at Caesars last summer. Don't get me wrong, I love this little purse. But it has been annoying me, it is just to darn narrow. I have found that carrying it actually puts me in a bad mood. Does this ever happen to anyone else??

A year she will never forget...

My youngest has had a very rough year. We moved out of our house last July on her 7th birthday and into my parents basement while our new home was being finished. In August she started a new school with some old friends, but mostly new ones. Our new house was ready in mid-September. School was a struggle for her, she was in second grade and was reading on 1st grade level. This was very frustrating for her, reading did not come easy, like it did her big sister. This was one of the many disagreements between her dad and I. He thought we should have held her back in 1st grade. I did not want to hold her back. I talked to her teachers and principle of the new school and arranged for her to be in a split 1st/2nd grade class. By the first of December she was reading on grade level. She worked so hard and I am so proud of her.

Then in mid December, her dad and I separated. She is so young and she doesn't understand why we can't get along. She asked me the other day if Daddy could live in the basement and we could live in the upstairs, and that dad and I would never have to see each other. I explained to her that Mommy and Daddy still love her and her sister but we can't be the way we were. I understand how she feels about her dad. I am the only girl in my family and I believe my Dad hung the moon and the stars just for me! And he can do no wrong and fix anything.

I worry about her so much, she has been through alot this past year. School will finally be out next Tuesday, that will help with her stress level. Her dad is taking them a couple of weeks this summer for vacation, she is really excited about that. And I have someone in my life that I love very much and he loves us. All of us, just the way we are, bumps and all.